the post that comes in a long while

It's been quite a long while since I last blogged. Well, much has happened. The official induction has not yet taken place, while post allocation is merely tomorrow, but even then, I feel as if I've been doing this for a long time, and I can only hope this means a smooth-sailing term, if not a near perfect one. I hope for a certain confidence that people will have in me, and what I will do, because it is definitely important that some form of mandate should be given to me to ensure a continuing momentum in how I plan and do things. And even if this support is not given to me, I pray that I will be able to push on, keeping an unwavering self-confidence, knowing that what I am doing, I am doing for the best.

Time seems to run by me faster, each week passing quicker than the last one. Am I learning enough, fast enough? It seems as if everything rushes by, and then, you realise, you're being left behind. But is that such a bad thing after all? I want the scenic route; there's too much to be missed, yet, I cannot help feeling that this gap between me and the rest, is widening, deepening. Notwithstanding this, time waits for no man, but will it make concessions, just for me? I just hope I'm not too late.

Many new things, experiences - some delightful, some hard to accept. Change is definitely in the air, but I don't hope to. Routine has to be discarded, but I can't bear to. For a certain time now though, I've been living in the future. The 5 is always written as 7, and July's now instead of May. Is the idea of translation in time subconscious for me, a sign that I accept the bird of time and the winds of change?

If it is, I don't realise it.